To be a woman means that there are times you have to be a drama queen. Below is the definition I quoted from another blog.

Drama Queen: a woman who is over-emotional, irrational
and over-the-top with her reactions and interpretations
of behavior and events; emotionally high-maintenance

To night I got a high fever. Lately my health got worse, I dunt know why. I suspect the bad air circulation in my room though. It’s been my second night in row with this fever and to night it’s worse than yesterday. I dunt know why, and maybe there’s no scientific reason to explain why, when the fever get higher, so does my emotion pressure. I knew that I would cry.

I whispered to my heart, “dunt cry, my heart. It’s just a fever. Really just a fever. Dunt cry ssshhh.” But I knew it would cry soon.

Then I screamed to my nerve system, “Send a message to heart that it’s just a fever. Nothing to cry for.”

But it didn’t work. The emotion pressure got higher and the heart would cry very soon. Just because of a fever. Really unacceptable. I couldn’t stop it, really. I spoke to my self and repeated this sentence many times, “Calm down, it’s just a fever. It will be gone when I wake up. Calm down. Don’t cry. Don’t embarrass me!” But…. oh no guddamn it, I couldn’t stop it, I reached my cell phone and called my husband and cried so badly like a crazy stupid woman that you call “a drama queen”. I have successfully made my husband so worried that he would take the first flight in the morning :(. Forgive me, sayang

See…., I tried my best to control my emotion. I tried indeed. I even switched on my laptop and played monopoly, my favorite game, only to get my emotion pressure controlled, but it didn’t work at all. I just needed to be a drama queen to nite. I needed to be a woman.

Many men get very confused and protest that they don’t understand women. Women are too complicated and too confusing, they say. Yes, we are. We, women, even can’t understand our selves. You say that women are very emotional-controlled. Don’t say that we are not trying to control our emotion. We just can’t. Sometimes it’s too big to control. We just need to get it out. Sometimes by crying, screaming, hugging, eating, etc. Please just let us. Put us in your arms doesn’t hurt at all.

U know, after then amazingly my fever got lower and lower and I am writing now without any fever at all. Who would believe that being a drama queen can beat a high fever?